A paragraph from the book I just can’t seem to actually finish… maybe that is the point; maybe it is not supposed  to be finished…

“Just south of the lodge known as Bell II, I look through a clearing in the forest and see for the first time Canada’s great and glaciated Coast Range. Craggy peaks engulfed in ice and nary a road any where near them, I feel a washing aesthetic come over me, similar to seeing for the first time in many years the Canadian Rockies weeks earlier. I am coming home to a place I have never been, and a heartache for all things wild and free develops within, and a budding sense of realism penetrates all that this pedal north is becoming. Thoughts of my past life in Moab are becoming a distant memory, with visions of the North encompassing all of me and all I will become. This place, the Cassiar, her mighty rivers and expansive forest, begin to feel oddly familiar. There is a vague yet noticeable tinge of something ancient in these forests; something unexplainable that has catapult me into a womb of wilderness and animals. I see a Black Bear, then another, then another. The concepts of the modern world drifting from my heart; the destruction I feel I have left behind, the crying of a world gone mad, and the never ending forest are all I see now. In retrospect, I am quite certain that it was at this point my life changed forever. Never again could I be satisfied or feel safe in a world full of madness and decay. Here, my heart lost in a sea of timber and mountains, I see nothing but balance and I could never again return to what I had left behind. I was still a long way from Alaska, and if what I was experiencing here was only a precursor, I felt I might simply explode when I arrived in what the Athabascan’s call, “The Great Land”.”

A New Death

Pedaling up the Cassiar Highwhay in 2011 was a major turning point in my life. It was the first time in my life that I had become a part of the true north. It was an experience of gratitude and an observation of the world that I had dreamed of but not yet embarked. It was a place that reared an unspeakable truth to me and one that bears deep in my heart and cannot be let go or forgotten. It was a place that paved the way for an an unfounded way of life that I could only set forth dreams and revelations about the world that I had only glimpses of forlorn. It was on this journey that I died. And died I did. I died an unspeakable death of letting go of the prosperities and notions of a world gone totally mad. And then was reborn. It was this place that set forth the venture that I am now embarked on; the one that now allows me to live in the woods and ponder, as Thoreau did at Walden Pond, now in Alaska, and I am deeply grateful. Thank You David…Cassiar